Lost In Beauty-

Saturday, August 18, 2007

So wow, I guessed my blog has become a "hot spot" har because of some recent misunderstandings..okay so well I'm here to clarify.

To those who have read my blog and have felt angered and pissed, don't worry. I wasn't targeting you anyway. Maybe you have felt thatI'm biased, but please what Ive wrote does not only reflect my thinking. If you feel unjustified at what I have written then good, because I know you are not the one thinking that way, and I'm glad, really glad. If this doesn't convince you, then so be it. I don't have any other time to waste and clarify things with you or all of you. So I wanna clarify n clear things up here, once and for all.

Saying that your're are being happy for not winning at nationals is just literal. Please look deeper. Do you really think we meant that we were pissed and angry at the fact your did not win anything and were feeling angry that your were still crapping? No. Please, do you really think tad all our characters are all like tad, like wad demanding n wanting your to uphold tradition? No. I can't say further, but situations at SJ now, do not allow your to be joking, esp when ur take over the corp. Maybe one day your will know everything.

The word " complacent" WAS NOT meant for any of the fac members. NOT A SINGLE ONE OF YOUR WHO WENT FOR FAC. Really, so take back the word fuck. Its not meant for your. So your idea of what I was writting was totally off. So that's one misunderstanding cleared.

Another thing I wanna clear: Its not about our legacy. I'm not comparing us with you all in the first place so why worry? Why compare yourselves with us? I'm not saying that we're the best, we are the best ones, and blah blah whatever,so don't think that way. Both teams can't deny tad not much effort was put into this. You can't deny it that both teams of your did not put in much effort. No matter how busy your are surely there was time for practice, but we just didn see it. If you are joking and all that, its okay, its perfectly okay, but wad if ur repeat the mistake again next year? You might not understand what I am saying, so den listen to this: We're perfectly fine with you all joking, but next year, its no joke. Because there is noone else to be there to help your or to scold ur or remind ur or say all the hateful things like what I am doing now. I hope your understand what I saying. Think deeper. If you do not understand, then just know I was not there to suan you or to scold u or mistake you, its really..for your own good. My batch ain't the best, and that's why we're suaning or scolding you all now bcos we don't want your to repeat our mistakes when you all become Ncos. Because from the moment we took you over till the moment we stepped down, we could see all the flaws in all of you, and the many repetitions of our early days. We were all once like your, happy united rebel laugh joke confident motivated upright...but all these, you will be losing it very soon. Its like when u grow up, when responsibilties come, you start to lose part of you, someone u use to be. You start to lose the innocence in you, that bright part in you.

So now that your moving closer n closer to your next year, all I said might not be important to you and that you'll even forget them, but at least they are of notice to you now, and at this very instance. Its not about how successful your must be or have to be being our juniors. Yes we have expectations, but wad can our expectations do? As the old saying goes, its up to your. Not that whatever characteristics we have now is what was in our senior's blood, or that our seniors forced it into us, but we all gathered that from experiences, hard work hard sweat , through ourselves individually or together as a team.

I cannot say further to this. What I say has meaning to it. Please read in between the lines. What i say in the past or what any of the seniors say in the past can sound like thorns, bullshit or whatever, but definitely it carries some meaning and some weight.

In fact, its good that people have taken notice to wad I said and given negative or positive response to it. It really doesn't matter to me now because all of us have stepped down and we aren't there for your literally or physically anymore. We're busy n we have many burdens. If I had to be a devil n say nasty stuff, I would be one to take ur attention to certain matters. Now that your have read whatever I've written, I hope misunderstandings have cleared. Bcos there is certainly no benefits to me to suan your or to be prasing my batch. Absolutely will not help in our o levels, so I hope you know where my or our intentions lie.

When you are a bad cadet, and when you become an Nco, you will have bad cadets too, just like how you were. So be a good one. Because retribution comes about. Do you understand? All of you? Its is rather disappointing to see people still misunderstandin me or us up to this stage because your should all know we've graduated and nothing in SJ benefits us now.

We're all humans and we all make mistakes. Don't say sorry to me , or to us, because your can definitely do better. So carry your experiences this year with you to next year, because next year it will be very useful. We all once started out as inexperienced shit people. We flared, scolded, hated, ignore, cried and angered one another before. And that's what strengthened all of us, to what we are today. If you think this yr you did a lousy job, you are still given a chance next year to not repeat the mistakes n redeemn that guilt. Don't wait till you all are sec 4 n can do nothing much. Just like us.

So now that your all know we've placed our hopes and inaccomplished tasks on all of you, I hope you understood n cleared your part of misunderstandings. Some things written were not targeted to your, so relax. One day maybe you all will come to know everything.

But meanwhile, you are all our juniors, so just like parents, we want the best for your. To be people we've taught your to be. That's why I've said or are saying all this hurtful things.If you think I've been a lousy senior or a leader, or any one of us, then remember our flaws and do a better job next time. Don't misunderstand or get angry, because utimately, we all care about you. All of you.

Labels: because it doesn't help., Don't say sorry

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