Lost In Beauty-

Wednesday, September 01, 2004

sad...sad...sum1 in 1e3 is leavin..jin kai..dun leave larx..let 1e3 b united fereva..united till e end..dun leave ba...14 more mins..e flight will take off le..cant go airport..ma dun allow..asshole..i wish whole of 1e3 would b dere..every1 would cherish each of us..happi endins..=)..=(..i bet jk oso veri sad..i bet he missed her..den later he cry fer 1e3..i wanna go..e whole of 1e3 dere..start e bbq again..y din we eva cherish each otha?..haix..now we'r regrettin..no body wans..eva 2 regret..lik mi..givin up at e rong time..(not referrin to jk obviously)...i gave up at e rong time n tad hurt mi..realli hurt...tad time i was unsure whether 2 giv up not..not im sure..realli sure..im gonna convince mi self 2 giv up..remind mi self e actions tad hurt mi...everytime i hear ani sad song i would tink of him..i noe im cheatin mi self, lyin to M, cheatin him...but i cant hide e feelins in myself ani more..i cant help him....i wanna scream,shout,yell n stop mi self fr hurtin n sinkin ani deeper..it'll hurt more..i love him...hao?..i don wan..i noe mi self..i still love him..cant stop tad feelin..i noe mi self..it doesn juz end dere..:"juz scream it out..""i'll b e last 1 standin, juz let it out.." i dun lik M, juz love him as a fren..realli..zhen de..des ask mi as well break..e ting is i don even noe if he tink we r stead..i shld hav told him when he asked tad question..juz tad outbox too full..i tot we were nt..but now it seems to mi tad he tiks we r..i'll hurt him more in e future..i noe he cant take it..it hurts mi to c him hurt..cos dere's a little feelin dere..i noe its rong fer mi 2 do tad..ARGH!!..dere shuo mani tings fer mi to tink of, clear,...AGRH!1..shuo mani tings 2 do..but i still love him..hao?..cant change it.."it all depends on feelins lor.."=>tads wad e fucker said..fer once i agree wif him..yesh..it depends on it...7 mths le..i still cant get my mind off him..i dun wanna b lik T..waitin fer 2 yrs..i noe i cant get it shuo i'll giv up rather den hang on, wastin mi time n hurtin mi self deeper..i won b tad stupid 2 hang on n WAIT(lik she'll get him)fer 2 yrs..soon he'll b outta mi mind..i promise...*HAPPY TEACHER'S DAE!*

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