Lost In Beauty-

Wednesday, December 22, 2004

haix..shuo stressed..do i wan go FAC? first men, second men, third men or fourth men do i wanna b?..parents objections.. cant dey support mi?..dey kip givin mi stress..i noe studies nw most impt de..i try my best to study one lor..i oso hav my aims..stop stressin mi can nort?..cum home shuo tired, stil scold mi..lik i go out play liddat..plz lor...thx ya fer helpin mi oki??..but plz plz don giv mi stress...can?..i look at my seniors, e NCO'S..i c dem shuo stress.. dey dun sae, i oso can c n noe...dey look tired, exhausted..dey plan dis, plan tad fer us, hao nice of dem..dey hav no holidaes at all lor..so one dae, wen i bcum nco..wil i b lik dem?..mayb i tink 2 far ahead budden im goin sec2..more stress, more hmk, more crap..bloody streamin..wanna b first men muz learn b calm, make decisions fast, quick-witted..my seniors muz hav xperience a lort more den us..goin all e wae fr sec1-FAC-sec3-gradutes soon..muz thx dem..sec2s pass out le..a new batch of NCOs r goin 2 born soon..more initative, more endurance, more examples..tads wad we gonna show..muz make sure yr1s goin 2 b more bonded..yup..tads wad we intend do..bond every1..yr 1s hor..lets make it possible..show e ncos we can do it..aniting ish possible..lets endure..do our best fer wadeva happens..fer e upcomin yr 2..haix..all tad trainin makin my body ache all ova..hao lei..die..later cant move fast..betta heal todae!!..px our next yr 2 i/c..tym fer mx 2 graduate..hahaxz..tym flies..later its our turn..den we retired..haha..first studies, second cca den third ish bgr relationships ba..no choice..or do i hav a choice?..wads life?..i don get it..bein dedicated?..devoted?..i guess its juz lik tad ba..

:''sumtimes i feel lik cryin but
e tears juz wun cum, nort a single
one drops..but e heart remains achin..
will we b lik b4?..or ish it juz a memory?
tad wun get away or m i juz imaginin?"

And so what's your beauty? ;